Posted by kabouter on February 16, 1998 at 18:49:26:

You hurt me
And I break down like a little boy
Crying at the top of the stairs

I only asked for friendship
There among the apple trees we talked
You saw grey hair
I heard the blue air move like a river of love

I sit here drinking
It sneaks up the stairs like a guilty child
Whispers at the corner
"Hold me close, papa
I need a dose of your love"

My anger burns like Jupiter
The sky swallows stars
In its suck embrace
I was always afraid of not being loved
even death was better

A dream broke a sodden cloud
washed away my love
In the green and white twilight
Shadows steal the meaning from stillborn stars
and emptiness is everything after all

I want to
I need to
I have to
And then that is all.

kabouter

(to River Phoenix whom I just learned to love & to mother as well)
17.2.98